And no one warned me about the constant taste of blood in my mouth, either. >.> Maybe they thought if I was on Vicodin, I wouldn't care. I know it's supposed to make one woozy, but I feel perfectly lucid. (And I still feel pain, too. I'm convinced that they gave me a placebo.)

Kris, you want someone to write a rebuttal to this girls' editorial? *fangs* I'm considering it. To be posted to whatever forum that was, yes?

I'm not sure I got whatever point she was trying to get across. It seemed first she was trying to say that no one would read her fic because it had a plot and it was well thought-out, and then she switched gears and seemed to be trying to say no one would read it because they'd already read a friend's smutty GW fic, and assumed hers was the same type. O.o Or maybe her wandering train of thought was what muddled me.

Either way, I'm inclined to believe her friend was making a more or less polite excuse not to read her fic. I won't speculate what he thought of the quality, because I have no idea, but it sounds like he just didn't want to read hers. C'est tout.

As someone who has written both GW smut (and boy, was some of it terrible) and more reasoned, well thought-out fiction, I can say there's a forum for everything. If you're passing out smutty anything in high school, you can expect to get peoples' attention. That's just how it is. If you're working on something you feel is of a higher quality of writing, whether it's of the same fandom or genre or whatever, you may not want to pass it around to the friends who were chortling over the smut. There are plenty of fanfiction mailing lists out there (I think there are more than a hundred Final Fantasy lists on Yahoogroups alone) that would be willing to read, comment, beta, or whatever the author begs for hard enough. ^_-

(Whoohoo. Zidane just got up to level 9. *tay continues to level up*)

The 'editorial's' entire diatribe struck me as being more about wounded feelings than having a solid complaint. She was able to bring it into the RPG forum on the pretext that her fanfiction was Final Fantasy 9, yet the fic she was comparing it to was Gundam Wing. O.o She may have been alluding to other RPG fanfiction, but she did it vaguely enough that I'm uncertain.

Switching topics (kind of), I'm in the middle of a new Final Fantasy 7 fic, pairing Zax/Cloud, featuring gratuitous Sephiroth later on. It's called "Burning Like the Sun." It's bitten me hard enough that I've written twenty-two pages (size eleven, Trebuchet MS font) in twenty-four hours. It has a plot *gasp!!shock!!* and so far, I've skipped over the sex scene to keep writing. I don't want to break my stride. If anyone would like to beta an in-progress work, I'll review the credentials of the first three people who write me.

That sounds unbearably snotty, but this fic is for becki's birthday, and I want it to be GOOD. Normally I don't do much by way of beta and I'm sure it shows. No one is objective about their own writing, and can miss all sorts of slip-ups.

I had a minor rant about ff.net, but I'll save it for another day. Zidane just got up to level 10 and I'm ready to go rescue Vivi and Steiner. Plus, my sockets hurt. Is it safe to take Advil and Vicodin at the same time? (I might anyhow. I swear, they gave me a placebo.)

Be nice to me, lest I aim my bloody sockets at you and breathe.

Got my wisdom teeth pulled. Not only did the dentist say "Wow, you've got deep roots," but apparently I have more than the normal amount of roots -- I had three roots apiece for my top teeth. They didn't want to come out. Thankfully, I was so shot full of novocaine, I was feeling no pain.

The pain started about twenty minutes after we left the dental office.

At any rate, I'm doing better now, though I didn't want to do anything yesterday. I was actually considering going into work for a few hours, but becki wouldn't let me drive anywhere because the dentist put me on Vicodin. (Which doesn't do much for me, but she thinks I shouldn't drive, anyhow.) But my mouth tastes like a charnel house, or something. ;.;

I'm ficking today. I started something new for becki's birthday 'cause she changed her mind about what she wanted after she saw me play all of FF7. I'll post it to tayfic later; I have about eight pages so far. And I want to work on lots of other things, too, so we'll see what pops up. >.>

Once again, the new page will be at http://envy.nu/talyachan/ but right now it's just a temporary "I'm moving here" page, 'cause Puu is making a new layout for me. (*happyhappyjoyjoy*)

tay-chan gave into evil impulses on Saturday, June 23, 2001 at 01:05 p.m..



To infinity, and beyond!

Quick, quick note! I gotta run off and get ready for work.

Yoiko, I wub joo. ^______________^ Yoiko chased after my elusive, super-sized .zip file and wrassled it to the ground, so my files have been recovered!! YAY!! Thank you, thank you, THANK you~!! It surprised me (I spent five plus hours trying to download it on Tuesday night) but she's got a way better connection. ^_^

I am poor, but I'm going to get my teeth pulled tonight while I'm still covered by insurance. Otherwise I'd have to wait until August when my Blue Cross/Blue Shield kicks in. >_< And this one tooth is decaying, soo... I'm scared!! I've never had a tooth pulled before, and now I'm getting four out. At least I won't be coherent for all of it. And hopefully they'll give me a nice strong prescription for tomorrow. >___<

So everyone can expect not to hear from me until Saturday at the earliest. I was thinking of going into work tomorrow for four hours, but I'm told I will not be capable. Damn.

Crud, I gotta go.

Love! And! Peace! Yay!!

tay-chan gave into evil impulses on Thursday, June 21, 2001 at 06:13 a.m..



I get by with a little help from my friends. ^_^

Puu, Thea, I wub j00 both. *_* Sankyuu muchly.

Don't have much time, as I have to get ready for work. Going in a wee bit early, since I'm not sure yet if I'll cancel the dental app't. Thursday. I'm poor, but I also need to get my wisdom teeth pulled. >_< But I'm poor. I need to pay off my credit card bill *and* pay rent. Damn. I think the teeth will have to wait. >.>

I hate dreaming about work for a few hours before I have to wake up and go to work. *yawn* And I can't turn my head to the right. Damn.

Anyone still looking for me peeji: http://envy.nu/talyachan/ is what you can bookmark. ^_^ There's nothing there yet but wonderful Puu~rin is making a layout for me. XD In return, I am writing her requested Sanzou/Gokuu. ^_^ Previews can be had at tayfic.

I enjoyed Catsy's review of the ff.net story. Those are the kind of honest reviews I would like to give, sometimes. >.< These days, the only feedback people seem to be giving is gushing, illiterately positive feedback, to the ML or to ff.net posts. And the honest, constructive criticism gets flamed. ;.; "But my feelings were hurt!" Well, then, it hit a little too close to home, didn't it? XD

Um. Thassal for now. Before I descend into disorganized incoherency. I think I need a second cup of coffee. O.o

tay-chan gave into evil impulses on Tuesday, June 19, 2001 at 06:38 a.m..



Mondays should be banned.

The bright spot in my week is having $300 more in my checking than I should. *scratches head* Still trying to figure that one out.

Sorry to be so capricious, but my new page will be at http://envy.nu/talyachan/" for all and sundry who happen to be interested. It's not up yet. I'm working on a layout and I may need a little help from my friends. Elysaar, if you have time, I may take you up on the offer. =.=

The Webmaster of Dencity wrote me back at last, and he's being accommodating enough to put up my site as a temporary zip file. Naturally, it's way too large for me to download, so I'm no better off than I was before. *sigh* I wish I'd kept my old job just long enough to download the zip file. And since the phone lines in this apartment prevent reaching even a 56K connection, I'm pretty much stuck where I was before he courteously threw me a bone.

I'm behind on my mail, but thank you to everyone who has offered to help. A wonderful person offered to help by formatting stuff for me. Julian, I may take you up on it, but first I want to see if becki or I can download the zip file, or if I can... *cough* ...persuade someone to do it for me. ^^ *bambi eyes*

All but one of my blog images are back up, thanks to Katsu. ^^ I am so dependent on other people this week, it hurts. But I'm grateful.

As might be expected, I haven't gotten a whole lot of writing done. I will send some new bits shortly to tayfic, as well as explain my website situation again. Maybe later in the week I'll actually be able to get something done.

Meg, I haven't forgotten "Ouroborous." I really want to work on it.

I just need time for everything. ^^

Oh, yeah, and I'm prolly getting my wisdom teeth pulled out this Thursday. I expect to be incoherent (yay nitrous), drooling, and eating mush for all of my three-day weekend. That is, if I don't have to cancel because I'm too poor. =.= But right now I have a window of insurance and I should seize the opportunity; otherwise I'll have to wait until late July/early August.

Life sucks right now, but it'll get better.

Becki is the bright star in my world. ;.;

tay-chan gave into evil impulses on Monday, June 18, 2001 at 09:26 p.m..