I said I wasn't gonna do it...

It's tay-chan RANT time!

And I can tell you right now, this one will probably get me a ton of search engine hits. XD XD Link courtesy of Dr. MM, I have a few words to say about this non-yaoi web clique.

I think that it's a good idea. Nay, an excellent idea.

Back in the day, the only straight GW fiction out there was a couple of badly-written Heero x Relena lemons. I'll be honest; I have NO idea how much straight GW fiction is out there now, and I don't care. I do remember that the GWML (again, back in the day) had virtually no non-yaoi fans on it. There were very little resources or fanfiction for the would-be GW fan who didn't care for yaoi. Hell, there were little resources or fanfiction period, when I first got into GW. Getting to my point sooner or later...

Now, the series has gone commercial. Little boys are signing on and running searches for "Gundam Wing" and the like. There IS a need for websites and web-cliques that have plenty of information, galleries, etc. -- pages with content and fanfiction that are more suitable for the general public. I'm not even going to get into the issue of how the parent should (ideally) be responsible for monitoring content their child views. (For one thing, I can't vouch for the ages of these alleged webmasters in the clique.) Due to the increasing popularity of the series, there is a growing need for sites that are non-yaoi -- and because there are so many yaoi sites, there is a necessity to specify "this site is non-yaoi." Of course there are going to be a ton of people just discovering GW that stumble across our yaoi sites, and get totally horrified. That's their prerogative.

It's a good idea, and here comes the fat, hairy BUT.

What I feel there is NOT a need for is the blatant intolerance evinced by most of the so-called "webmasters" who have signed up for this non-yaoi web clique. Yaoi writers (in general; I can't say specifically) do not go around bashing straight writers, or people who support only straight material and fanfiction on their sites. And if we did, we'd be laughed at for being silly.

The webmaster Aelice is indirectly tolerating this in-your-face gay-bashing by not setting some sort of standard, or monitor, for the "reason" section of each of the members. Whether Aelice meant for this to become a yaoi-bashing clique of flamers isn't really the point. She is silently endorsing it either way. That's what it comes off as, and that's what matters. I can understand the people who simply state "I'm not into yaoi, so I made an anti-yaoi site." That's great, and more power to you. Hope it was a decent site. It's the brainless statements like "I'm morally opposed to homosexuality--it grosses me out. Besides, I would much rather have the pilots falling in love with girls--like me." Last time I checked, being grossed out wasn't a moral reason for stating intolerance for a particular way of life. And I so agree with Caroline in the "Mary Sue check, please!" department.

Of course, there's nothing we can do but bitch about it. ^_^ But it's so much fun!

Anyone else have the time or inclination to view the site content and/or appearance of the sites in the non-yaoi web clique? I don't, otherwise I would do it and give a full report. For all I know, all of these homophobes have shining examples of Gundam Wing sites, with no overt traces of yaoi-bashing but for their "non-yaoi" banners. From their intolerant little "reason" comments, I'm not very hopeful.

Changing the subject. Kind of. Someone backhand Anne Landers for me -- the other day she ran a VERY vehement, very ignorant pro-gun control column. My favorite part was where it tried to rip apart the "Guns Don't Kill People, People Kill People" slogan and could come up with nothing stronger than "that's just silly! If there were less guns, people wouldn't be dying!" I almost wanted to send it to Frank just for the pleasure of seeing him rebut it. Frank, want me to hunt up Anne Landers' mailbox addy for you? (I could send you the article, too.) XD Anne has signed up for the UN's cause to disband America. That wench.

Speaking of wenches, my mother is the cutest one alive. This is the second year in a row she's had to overnight my birthday present to me because she either waited until the last minute, or forgot until the last minute -- I'm not sure which! *chuckles* All this means is she can NOT complain when her gift is late. Or, um, she's getting me back for the many years when it was.

That's it for me. I'm starved. I, being the dizzy wench I am, left my lunch on the counter at home, but DID remember to nab the October Project CD I just got so I could play it in the car. -.- And I can't leave work early. *huddles* *drinks more water* *stomach sloshes and gurgles* Damn.

Happy birthday, becki!

I won't say how old she is (she'd kill me) but anyone who cares to can send her birfday wishes or e-cards at knm @ kuwamiko.com.

Tay-chan wakes up at four-thirty to wash her hair. It takes twenty minutes, give or take five. Methinks it's time for a cut again...

And speaking of hair color trends, I want to dye it red again. It was red in high school, and fairly short. I dyed it blonde at the beginning of college. Some point in the middle of college, I went to red again for Halloween and (in a timely fashion) accidentally turned it bright orange. After Halloween I used dark brown and it turned some odd black-auburn shade, which lightened to a brown-auburn after a few weeks. Now it's very long, the longest it's ever been, and blonde. Short is starting to look good to me. I SHED. That, and it gets caught on everything, from car doors to the back of my chair at work. o.o

Yuuki is traumatized when Tay takes a shower. "Moooooom! Mooooom! You've showered! Your SCENT'S all gone!" He yells and rubs against my legs until he feels better about himself for marking me. ^^

Anyhow, back to the birthday smut! XD Four pages... I think I'm about halfway done. I hope.

No, dammit, I will NOT use the phrase "Northern Mako Lights" in a lemon.

But it's awfully tempting. XD

yohji lit up another one at Thursday, July 26, 2001 at 05:02 a.m..

Naughty Zoot.

I think I'm done feeling sorry for myself. I think. I had to delete that earlier, overly-dramatic entry before I was forced to smack myself.

I need a good hard dose of SILLY.

I'm still not sure whether to blame it on hormones or not. My monthlies have turned into every-other-monthlies, and that's already more information than most people want to know. I still don't have health insurance so I can't make a doctor's appointment. And I will NOT take the Pill because I don't fancy increasing another bra-size when the current one is already too much.

I won't "split my gut" and talk about everything that's bothering me, because an awful lot of people do read this weblog and most of them are strangers. Besides, I'm afraid that if I start listing things that I think are wrong, I would find an awful lot. Part of the way I deal with things is by forcing myself to be cheerful no matter what, while at the same time walling up whatever hurts until I can deal with it.

On the other hand, if I try to examine reasons, I may find there's nothing at all. If anything, that's worse because I know I have a dreadful propensity for overreacting over nothing. I may be taking a few minor things in my life and blowing them up all out of proportion. So for now, it's convenient to blame it on hormones. Moving on.

Natalie Baan linked me, and it made me happy and sparkly. I've been meaning to write her for ages and tell her how much I've liked her stuff ever since Thea forwarded "Kanriki" and "Magician" to me, but I have those timid fangirl feelings of 'anything I say to her will not be coherent,' so I still haven't said anything to her.

This is bad. I'm stewing in my own hypocrisy.

Thea? Thank you for listening this morning. I've been feeling sorry for myself lately, and hearing you articulate what you did -- well, seeing, as it was IM -- is helping me deal with part of what's bothering me. I haven't seen you in ages and I'm really looking forward to Yaoicon. I meant what I said -- if you want a room rent-free to crash in, we already have four people in ours and the floor is open to you. If you bring bedding. ^_- Or if you don't get a better offer. *leer*

Denise? I liked your writing entry. That and Piro's rant pulled me out of a slump.

That is SO true. If I stopped writing lemonfic, all the people in MY head sure would bitch about not getting laid. o.o I don't think I could handle it, and Sydney has wicked-sharp claws.

At a certain point, the voices take over. It's the loudest ones that get written first. Right now, Zax is screaming hella-loud but Sydney and Ashley are threatening to drown him out. And all of my non-RPG voices are sulking, because all I've been doing lately is playing RPGs, or writing them, or writing about them.

Neko-imouto, I would love to hear random Disney songs in Japanese. And thank you SO much for what you've put up already. XD I wasn't online last night so I didn't snag anything more -- I still need to grab a few more Midorikawa songs. XD XD XD And I would LOVE to grab "Love and Peace" by Tokio. Have I mentioned how much I love Tokio?

"Burn Like the Sun" is sucking the life out of me. When I finish it, I don't think I'll be able to write another FF7 fic ever again.

I did unsub from most of the mailing lists I was on, though. I need a few less headaches. =.=

yohji lit up another one at Wednesday, July 25, 2001 at 09:55 a.m..

"Even though you're miles away, I'm by your side..."

The Backstreet Pride pita scares me. A lot.

Anime fans don't live in caves. Well, mostly. And some of us know who Mandy Moore and Destiny's Child are...but don't care! XD Either that, or they and their ilk frighten us. I know just enough about them to know I don't want to know more -- and I don't want their albums. The only boybands I care about are Japanese. There's a reason I don't listen to the radio.

I brought my laptop to work today for the sole reason of playing my mp3s because I'm sick of my co-worker playing 105.whatever. My co-worker doesn't care that the music is Japanese. And my 70+ playlist affords a lot more variety compared to the ten songs they play on the radio all day.

Need more mp3s... *sparklesparkle* Neko-chan, sankyuu! I think I'll grab every last one of those. I think Dark Mousy's song is my current favorite, with Satoshi's running a close second. If you have any other favorite mp3s you wouldn't mind sharing, I'm always searching for more... *kirakirakira* *heartmark*

Nooo, everyone who asked, I'm not giving up fanfiction for good, and not right away. I still have a folder of in-progress fics that I intend to finish. I don't think I'll be starting new ones, though. If I start a new anything, it's going to be the novel that's been growing in my head. Some of the final elements are starting to shape up rather interestingly.

yohji lit up another one at Tuesday, July 24, 2001 at 01:13 p.m..

That tears it, it does.

Nice and warm and relaxed after a good meal and some "Vagrant Story." And it's good to be genki and online with my neko-imouto and Janie. And like all good imoutos should, she is sl0ring me the music I just HAVE to have. XD

Dinner was good tonight, but I want to try a new recipe. *thoughtful* I'm decent when I can be bothered to cook, and I hardly ever burn or overcook it. XD And I've been meaning to get a grill... Well, the problem with new recipes is if I do something too exotic, usually becki eats about half and says absolutely nothing. =.= That's no fun.

I got becki's b-day present in the mail today! XD YES! It got here on time, air mail from Canada!! I'm so happy. I know she's really going to like it.

In other happy Playstation 2 news, we got some new anime DVDs yesterday. Eatman '98 I'm still withholding judgment on, but "Twilight of the Dark Master" is ABSOLUTELY AWESOME!! *heartheartheart* SEKI TOSHIHIKO~! SAMA~! as another~! BISHOUNEN~! *heartmarks like mad*

Um. Okay, I'm genki-sparkling all over the place tonight. And my mom is willing to buy me anime for my birthday, so naturally I asked for Outlawstar, Trigun, and Lost Universe. Happy-making.

Ugh, I'm getting old. I played badminton on Saturday night at a housewarming party, and I'm still sore. *moans feebly* This means I am out of shape and need to exercise.

I think I'm getting to the point in my fanfiction career where it just isn't rewarding enough to write fanfiction, and that's why it's been so dissatisfying lately. I have original ideas and they're ready to hatch. And I got a long-awaited book in the mail today, started reading it while I was cooking dinner.......and realized that I can write better than this author.

I need to get PUBLISHED. It's been a fun three, three and a half years writing fanfiction, but I'm almost ready to try and make my dreams come true. ^_______________^

yohji lit up another one at Monday, July 23, 2001 at 09:00 p.m..

It's time to stop going online when:

1. Janie's blog has been replaced with Brian's blog. T_T Janie, dooushite?

2. You realize you've checked mail, mailing lists, and the entire list of blogs, and there's nothing new. Oh, and the last time you checked was ten minutes ago. >_<

3. You're at work. It doesn't matter that your bosses are both out of the office; you're still at work.

All right, it's time to get cracking. >.> I was going to post a revised rant, but changed my mind. It doesn't mean much if you don't follow the whole thread, really. That started with Snapdragon's rant on fanfiction. Do go read it; I agreed with a lot of her points. I posted a response some few messages later. *niko*

Enough. I have fic to get back to. And RP-posts I'm behind on.

I've gotten a new virus in the mail. Very insidious; one version had the attachment named DarkClowPrologue.doc.lnk. I need to find out what it is and if it's serious. >.> Shortly, I'm sure, there will be a rash of virus warnings on all my MLs.

Wai! And I checked my mail and got a very lovely compliment. *^_^* Sometimes it DOES pay to check it.

yohji lit up another one at Monday, July 23, 2001 at 02:29 p.m..

I don't ALWAYS procrastinate. Just mostly.

Updated my blogs list! XD Finally.

The new blogs are in no particular order, honest, and some of them are not referrers but blogs I wanted to link. XD I am most bemused by the "Backstreet Pride" referrer. >.> Must investigate.

Ye gods, I've been averaging over a hundred hits lately. O.o I don't have that many new referrers, either. Honest, I don't have that much to say. Much. XD

I've ranted to YSML and shall probably post an edited version here.

Tune in later for details.

Random thought of the morning...dammit, I HATE finding cat hair in my eye. But I love it when he sleeps on my face. >.>

That, and if I hear this radiohead song one more time, I'm going to beat my head on the desk until my skull caves. There's a reason I stopped listening to the radio... >_<

yohji lit up another one at Monday, July 23, 2001 at 11:06 a.m..

Grar, I say.

I haven't posted a lemonfic in approximately five months.

I haven't received more than a trickle of C&C, or even bare commentary, in approximately five months. Most of this comes from friends and author-friends. And dead silence from any of the various MLs I've posted to.

I see a clear (though possibly erroneous) correlation.

I am so disgusted.

yohji lit up another one at Monday, July 23, 2001 at 08:35 a.m..

NO attention span.

Right. Instead of getting ready for work as I should be, I'm playing "Vagrant Story." *kirakirakira* I'm almost done with my second play-through and then I'd be able to write more fic... Then again, I want to keep the Gold, Silver, Steel, and Platinum Keys a little longer. T_T I've earned them with my--er, Ashley's sweat and blood.

Well, it's Monday. I don't care if I'm a leetle late.

Got some new anime yesterday! I'll blog about it later, tho'. I've gotta finish up what I'm doing here (organize inventory, kill Kali) and I really SHOULD hurry up and get ready for work.

I promised myself I'd work on fic all weekend, and only got a few pages done. ;.; Becki was very productive, though.

Whoa, it's past time to get going. >.>

yohji lit up another one at Monday, July 23, 2001 at 06:28 a.m..