*dances* Voulez-vous couchez avec moi, ce soir? =^_^= Sorry about that, nyao. In a silly mood again, to compensate for...well, lots of things. Primarily the fact that the plant will be shutting down not just Monday for Memorial Day, but Tuesday, too...because they can't afford to be open. -.-

In other news, I have eight cover letters ready to fax or mail out tomorrow morning. I can't stand it; the atmosphere is so tense at this place now.

The 'shock' in today's header refers to the fact that... *gasp* I AM contemplating writing hetero fanfiction for the first time in...about four years? Somethin' like that. I need to do a little more research, encourage the blurbs in my head to transfer from thought to paper, and then I'll prolly post it to tayfic and bounce it at a couple of people to demand if it's worth finishing. ^_^

Leareth, that sucks rocks. Major rocks. >.< *sympathy* I can see how that would totally ruin an evening... My only suggestion is trying to show her how much traffic the scan-lations get, and how many e-mails you receive regarding the project...and if you plaster her name and e-mail all over the scan-lation site, maybe she'll reconsider? It looks like you did get permission, so did she just suddenly change her mind about it?

Everyone and their cousin has been changing their layout lately...man, I really want to, too!! *bangs head against the desk* And I know which picture of Eriol-kun I want to use; I just need to find a good copy and beg someone to let me modify it. It's the "Reflection" picture of Eriol standing in front of the mirror, with Clow smiling out of the mirror. *bangs head harder* And I HAVE it in my artbook, yet I can't scan it for the life of me, 'cause becki's damned scanner is ONLY compatible with the latest, most expensive version of Photoshop. Which we can't afford right now. If anyone knows which picture I'm talking about, and you have a copy you're willing to let me use, e-mail me? Prease? Talyachan at aol dot com?

Anyhoo...speaking things CCS, Tin, IIRC, Clow Reed was related to the Li clan because he was a son of one of the daughters -- born of an English mage and a Li woman. Time frame? You get to pick! But I think it was 16th or 17th century. (Could be shortly after Marco Polo made his trip, even -- shortly after Great Britain found their way there, at any rate.) And I think he also arranged to have a child by one of the Li women, from whence Eriol-kun, in a twisty, branchy manner, eventually sprang. So it wasn't exactly from Clow's grave. (That part is based off hazy recollection, and I could be confusing it with something else entirely.) However, I can say with certainty that Nadeshiko IS Sonomi's first cousin. (And that's the only thing I can say with absolute authority. *sweatdrop)

*thoughtfully* I have quite a few files in my "Unfinished" story folder. However, I am going to Ignore Them All, because I have two gift-fics I need to work on, as well as the hetero-story (fandom deliberately unnamed) that I'll be starting. Priya will be returning in early June, so I REALLY need to move on her gift-fic, and becki's birthday is July 26th, so I should at least start hers. The first gift-fic will be "Saiyuki" Sanzou/Gokuu, and the second gift-fic will be a "Bouncer" fic. Lest I squick, I shan't inflict the pairing anywhere but tayfic.

And now, I have Much To Do. I'm behind on my e-mail (of course) but I'll try to answer ten-twenty this Saturday.

Oh, the CFFML? N@t weilded her Hammer of Justice, and the idiots still shot their mouths off after that. Things seem to've quieted down. The most irksome part about ano hito and his little friend is that, *because* N@t weilded her Hammer to shut down the thread, they'll feel vindicated and martyred. "Oh, look, our ideas were so disturbing, they had to run to the moderator to shut us down." And that's not it AT ALL. It was the manner in which he went about his "discussion." His thread was aggressive from the start, with the underlying message of 'and if you don't agree with me, you're just plain WRONG as well as idiotic.' And that's no way to run a discussion. IIRC, there were around 600 people last week on CFFML, and now there are around 500. Noise, spam, and general unpleasantness does lead to mass unsubscribing. Personally, I changed my ML options to web-only.

Speaking of MLs, I've gotta catch up on my RPs.

Listening to: Tamahome's image song. Wail, M-sama, wail!
Playing: "Vagrant Story," Plateia Luminar, and I beat three Daevas and two big monsters last night! XD
State of Mind: Reflective. That, and 'should I cut off all this long hair?'

tay: He's cheating! Dammit! He's got an unfair advantage!
becki: Tay, it's three against one.
tay: ... ... ...oh yeah. >.<

The quick blog! 'Cause I gotta knuckle down and get into some serious work, here.

ARGH!! I'm glad Tin has authorized a scorching, because HE NEEDS IT! Yes, the CFFML trauma is still going on. After he was asked with reasonable politeness to drop the thread, the infamous "He Who Shall Not Be Named" (except by Tin XD) responded with a snotty quote from the rules. Oooh, he's asking for a stomping. Anyhow, I'm not the only one sick of him, but we are staying out of it now. The ass will continue to make an ass of himself, and let himself in for a fine bonfire.

"I know! I'll turn him into a flea. And then I'll put him into a box. And then I'll put him into a BIGGER box. And then I'll mail that box to myself, and when it shows up, I'll SMASH IT WITH A HAMMER!"

XD XD XD. Yes, I do feel better. He may shut up, but I doubt it. His type likes to hear itself talk, and someone took the bait again and responded...so naturally he'll start into that response. And then, N@t will smash him with that hammer.

Is it wrong to feel gleeful?

Anyhow. *koff* Picking up the last chair for the dining room set today, yay! ^_^ Then I'll stop by becki's parents' house to talk things over with her mom, who is one of my professional references. She has a web-based publishing company; it's a damned shame she can't afford to hire me. >.<

Ah, I got the omake for chapter seven finished, and posted to the tayfic-ML. ^_^ Lotsa new people have joined! I love you ALL! *blows kisses*

I'm in a silly mood this morning, to compensate for all the crap I will have to wade through today. I would like to fic today, but I sincerely doubt it will happen.

Oh, yeah, on the whole Eriol x Tomoyo issue...personally, I LOVE the couple. This is mainly Meg's fault, because I adore the way she writes them. Do I have other reasons for liking them? Mochiron! They're cute together. Are there other reasons? Well, yes, but I don't have time to elaborate. Maybe tomorrow. If a Certain Someone protests against ExT pairings because they are trying to force a lesbian Tomoyo into a heterosexual relationship, that is PATENTLY RIDICULOUS. Hello, yaoi fan here? And I'm living with my girlfriend? I don't think Tomoyo's potential for love is limited solely to Sakura. And I do see her moving on, and finding someone else whose happiness means as much to her -- yet can return that feeling in equal measure. Why Eriol?

Dammit, because we LIKE it.

I meant for that to be short. *scrunch* Ah, well.

Listening to: "Gensou Maden Saiyuuki" image album vol. 2
Playing: "The Bouncer," almost done w/fourth replay.
State of Mind: *gurgle*

tay-chan gave into evil impulses on Wednesday, May 23, 2001 at 07:40 a.m..



"Shortly before their periods, women behave the way men act all the time." -- Jubal Harshaw, quoted in The Cat Who Walks Through Walls.

Heinlein, huh? He wants to use Heinlein? There's another. *big, wet raspberry*

I wish to kill him and leave his broken body as a warning for others.

Ahh, don't be fooled by that; I'm working out of my rage into a rather good mood. ^_^ Although there is someone who needs to be bitchslapped on the CFFML, rather badly, I'm hoping the moderator will stomp on him if he persists. This is the second "Thread from Heck" he's kicked off in the span of a few days -- and by his own admission he's doing it deliberately. But I did break down and write a post to the effect of "shut up; no one wants to hear it and you're OT, anyway." Phrased slightly more politely. If you want all the scandalous details, go sub to CFFML; I'm done. The irritation has been worked out.

Mine koi cheered me up greatly last night, when I came home in a frantic bad mood. Becki, I love and appreciate and can't do without you! ^__________^

Granted, the $100+ grocery bill we racked up last night didn't help, but my parents are coming this weekend, we were out of food, and they expected me to have a bottle of Oregon Pinot Noir waiting for them, nicely chilled. >.< That shit is expensive. Well, compared to the beer I usually drink. And I already have a line on a couple of job prospects, so I'm not too worried.

I'm looking forward to the visit this weekend from the other set of parents...though I really should pick up a gym membership; we are going to eat a lot of fine, rich food next week. *is looking forward to it* I may not currently live the way I was brought up, but DAMN, they do everything they please, and do it in style. And I miss them, of course, even if they are perfectionist elitists. ^_^;;;

THEA!!! *sparkle* You are moving to Seattle? *heartmark* I wouldn't have asked to visit or be visited by you during your sanity vacation, since I know you're going to see Catsy, but once you move up here, we've GOT to get together!! *heartmarks and sparklies* I miss you!!! And I haven't seen you in over a year and a half!!

The 'project' has come to a deadhalt, nyao. And it's not even my fault -- I've run out of binders and I need more to continue, nyao. I feel no guilt.

I think that's basically it for today's blog. Was pissed at the someone on CFFML, took action and am feeling my way into a fine mood, am currently at dead-halt on my project, am ecstatic that Thea-shishou is moving to Seattle, and my koi is the guiding beacon/anchor of my week. ^_______^

Ficking may ensue today. Ve shall see.

Listening to: "Afro Celt Sound System," vol. 2: "Release."
Playing: "The Bouncer" AND "Vagrant Story." Alternately.
State of Mind: Bouncey and anticipatory.

tay-chan gave into evil impulses on Tuesday, May 22, 2001 at 10:00 a.m..



"Fix me now, I wish you would..."

Which reminds me, I think I should pick up a copy of Garbage's first CD, if only to make me feel better. (Better? That depressing music? Yeah, it would...)

*pause* Gee, that sounded like I started in the middle of the blog entry. Anyhow... Weird. I'm not the only one who had strangely realistic dreams last night.

AND, I've been moody as hell today, not sure if I have hormonal reasons or not but I suspect I do. That, and my father and stepmother are coming to visit Sunday and staying until Thursday, but at least they're staying in a hotel!! *faint with relief* That means they'll only bother me when they want to go out to dinner, and I can drag becki along as a shield. And unlike tayMom, Dad and step-Mom are perfectly happy that I never plan on having children. ^_^

Anyhoo...I found out today from a reliable source that as soon as I finish the project I'm working on, I'll be let go. >.< Such a nice phrase. Kind of like 'passed on' is a nice phrase. That, of course, sent me into a spiral of panic. I can't afford not to work for longer than a week. So I sent twenty-two online job search results to the shared printer. XD XD While my co-conspirator co-worker stood next to it and waited. XD XD She says I should go ahead and use the fax to send out my resume, too. XD XD XD I'll do that eeeearly tomorrow morning.

I just hope this means I get a BETTER job than what I have right now, 'cause what I've got now is...well, aside from the free unlimited internet access, it's the pits. And that happy internet access can only keep me for so long. So I'm searching, and I'll churn out my resumes like mad. But in the meantime, it kicked off an automatic panic reaction. I'm sure I'll be fine, even if I have to go back into retail. *makes icky face*

But in regards to that project...HAH!! Like that gives me motivation to finish it!! -.- Well...there's only so long I can prolong the inevitable.

However, it was comforting to note how many places in the area are hiring people with my skills. O.o And I'll be getting an excellent recommendation from my current supervisor.

*gurgle* That's my big news for the day. Fun, innit? And on a Monday, too...still, I feel somewhat better for knowing. I had been feeling uneasy at work lately, and I think this is why. Things can only get better from here.

........right? _._

Playing: "The Bouncer" AND "Vagrant Story." Alternately.
State of Mind: Writer's-blocked, and worried about job prospects. >.<

tay-chan gave into evil impulses on Monday, May 21, 2001 at 01:53 p.m..



"I'd say that was about a '-3' on the manliness scale."

Archived. Mweh. "Anfang" ch.8 is giving me fits, so currently I'm doing anything but trying to work on that crucial scene. It's not that Schuldich isn't eager; it's that Yohji is thinking too much. *pounds head against the--* Whoops, sorry, Bratt.

Got furniture delivered yesterday! Whee~! So I spent an hour or two getting that organized, and disassembling my crappy old desk to haul it to the dumpster. Now my room looks pretty darn good. *preen* Thanks to Mom for buying the dresser and the pier...

I found the greatest site last night through Osmalic's link page, "Fish Garden," with some really lovely fanart of Harry Potter-dachi. I'm still trying to find the promised doujinshi, but there are some really cool pictures of Tom Riddle, and Harry-dachi, and WOW. *_* I like that one. And this one from "The Chamber of Secrets" is excellent. I like the take these artists have on Tom Riddle. =^_^= I may have to do somethin' 'bout that. This one's cute, of Harry and Gilderoy Lockhart. *n.n*

'Nyway, I gotta get back to...Stuff. Still have to do laundry and go grocery shopping. Kya~! We're almost out of the essentials!

Thea, luck, luck, and LUCK~!! And have fun in Seattle!! ^______________^

Watching: Becki playing FF8.
Playing: With the computer...kinda. It's fun.
State of Mind: Writer's-blocked.

tay-chan gave into evil impulses on Sunday, May 20, 2001 at 11:18 a.m..